NismoGirl

James, are you intending to meet anywhere on Saturday to drive up to Brisbane?? Let me know cause some goldcoast people want to come and they don't know how to get there.

I've got your number James! Lauren, I didn't get to drive it all weekend because we drove andrew's car. He just got new suspension so we had to drive it. But my car is definitely going to the drive in's this weekend. Recaro's with a comfy car and good stereo! I'm not falling into this one.

ahahaha.. How do you know we're not doing it by pm's eh? *winks*

Lauren, it was crap. For one, andrew didn't buy me a present (as usual, i think out of the whole 5 years I've got 2 presents!) For two, he worked on his car all night while I was here with terrible cramping and being sick. For three, the hospital rung and wanted me to go in for my operation on thursday but because we were out to lunch with work at the carlton crest I didn't wanna be rude and leave my phone on so I missed the call. Hence missing out on the short notice spot on thursday this week. Which sucks cause as I said Friday night I was really sick with cramps and yeah.. the usualy shit but worse. Then he said that he doesn't care about anniversarys, they are for married people. So i got really cut

She just came in and did her nightly jump on my lap letting me know she's in for dinner!

Aww.. my cat got her needle on saturday and shes still really quiet! Poor widdle nelix moos. I love my little kitty

They whinge and whinge about not having somewhere to meet and catch up on thursday nights mainly and that they keep getting hassled where every they go, and Andrew and I have decided to get off our arses and do something about it and organise a carpark to have our meetings in and this weekend is a tiral run of it, and no ones attending. Cept like 10 skyline people from here.

**** it. Has she gone now?

GRR.. I'm pissed off.. trying to work out these boys over here on boostcruising. >:

LAUREN?@!#?!@#??#!?@#?@!?#!@?# *smooches you all over*

What a day.. I'm going to bed. Night

Ergh. I feel like crap. I should have gotten up at 10 when I woke up :|

What about now

Be careful tonight boys. Aparently the cops are going to be raping the coast

He drives SOOO much better..

... We're coming to the gold coast tonight? In brutis. I drove him today AND I didnt' stall it!!

I think wayne might have a obsession with shiny things..

Have you met me?? Thats my little brother in my avatar. My dad has been remarried and that's the outcome of that I love him to death.

I've been through all that. Cept it wasn't b/f trouble. It was friend trouble. I sat there everynight and said over and over in my head "why me.. I dont wanna do this anymore" Then I sat there and realised that people like that make your life living hell because they are jealous of what you have and want your life to be as perthetic as theirs. I put on 20 kilos in Grade 12 because of my supposed two closest friends that saw it fit to sit and call me a fat whore, and that I didn't go anywhere with them cause I was too fat. The actual reason I didn't go anywhere with them on the weekends is because I had a life (well... I thought I did!! ) and I also had other friends that I realised were real friends and didn't sit there and spread rumours about me around the school. I'm weak, and I'm emotional, I'm terrible and the one thing I did wrong was let them see that I was crumbling and that they had won. I realise all this now, but at the time, all you can think about is ending it and ****ing up your life (and everyone else around you that loves you)... I now realise who my real friends are and who just had me as a friend to try and make themselves look better. I saw the school shrink and she just didn't know how to handle it. It was normal female teenage crap that I couldn't handle too well because I get soo emotional. I ****ed up my schooling because I let them get to me. I ****ed up my own state of mind because I let them get to me. I had no self confidence, no positive outlook and life and most of all I had no friends at school because I had concentrated on jsut being friends with these two people. Once I realised what was happening to my life (6 months later) I realised how perthetic and immature they were and tried to pick up my school results, but unfortunately it was too late to get them back to my normal high marks. I look back at it now and I just laugh. I'm a government employee, I'm getting loads of money for my age, I've got my health, I love my family and I've got my car. All these things make me happy and they make me the person I am. I still get very insecure around people and think I'm fat and I'm ugly (which I am) and I am starting to accept that fact and doing more and more about it (I'm still looking into the price of plastic surgery )People are my friends because they like the person I am, not some fake person that I tried to be to make these two girls in school like me. Theres no point trying to be someone your not just to fit in. Now that I've told you my whole life story (and why I am the way I am today) I'm going to bed!

My fingers are sore and my eyes are popping out of my head. I'm going to bed. Night! Ouch, sore fingers

James, sitting here saying "i'm worthless, I'm nothing" isn't going to help the situation. Just go out and enjoy yourself and be yourself. Don't sit there and think "No one wants me"... I'm a true believer in fate, things happen for a reason and there is a really nice gorgeous girl sitting out there waiting for you. Look beyond the looks and outside. It's what's inside that matters. Yes looks always have something to do with it, I'm not denying that, I'm just saying, the gorgeous chicks are usually the ones that are the most shallow people you will know. Don't take this the wrong way but really am getting annoyed with seeing you say shit like "I wanna end it" "I'm ****ed up.. no one likes me" You've got friends and family, your healthy, your alive, you've got a job. That should be what your looking at, not sitting there moping that you don't have a girlfriend. Life's probably easier without one And cheaper! You've gotta love yourself before you can love anyone else (I should practice what I preach ) Your a really nice guy who shouldn't be sitting there everynight telling people how much you hate yourself and how much you want to die. Go and join some social clubs, stuff you like doing, (not cars).. Car chicks are only normally after your car (unlike me and lauren But Lauren is mine ) You never know, you might meet your soul mate! We're your friends. If we didn't like you, we sure as hell wouldn't drive to Yatala to sit and have a meat pie with you, would we? Stop moping around and do something about it. A shrink won't help, trust me. I've been there done that. I was only 8 and I realised this stupid chick knew nothing about how I felt or how to fix it. Once *YOU* have fixed the problems/anger/fear/emotional problems, you will realise that you shouldn't have sat and dwelled on the past. Remember, things happen for a reason... (Hence why I missed the operation appointment, if I had gone, I wouldn't have been able to make the Drive ins!!! and we don't want that now do we!)

Michael, I'm still ****en cranky and pissed off because the ****en hospital rang me this afternoon while I was having Lunch at a restuarant with work (so to be polite I turned my phone down) and I didn't hear it ringing and subsiquently missed out on a spot for next thursday to get my gaul bladder out... THAT is why i'm ****en cranky, plus many other things

Man, james. I'll swap. you can have these pains, aches when ever you eat something and I'll have your life.

:Pissed:

How come they get a long weekend. I WANT A LONG WEEKEND.. Bah. I'm going to work. It's andrews and my 5 year anniversary today. For 1, he won't remember and 2, hes going to be playing with brutis all afternoon. and for 3, i wont get a damn present. I'm going to work. >: