Sorry to hear that Greg. If you need someone to talk to, you know where I am I'm always here. You've spoken to me before, you can do it again. Talking to people on the outside of things always helps.
Condolences to you and the rest of your family. Things do get better, it just takes time. I've unfortunately already had a funeral to go to this year and my grandfather has just been diagnosed with throat cancer. Tough times ahead, but time heals all wounds.
Chin up.