Just toying with ideas at the moment. Things seem to be fluctuating from bad to worse on a regular basis. What little wins are to be had are quickly masked up by a lot of negativity from either external or internal forces. Being one that doesn't believe in blaming others for mistakes (I'll pull someone up if they screw up but blame myself for not taking the precautions to ensure that said event didn't happen), it really does take a toll.
With recent changes at work, things have been getting more and more strenuous for less reward. The club is difficult to work with with so many people not pulling their weight. Honestly, at times it feels as though there's only 3-4 of us putting in all the effort yet those not involved seek the glory.
Times are getting tougher it's not looking pretty out there. Even when looking at contemplating other options or what not, it's self-doubt through misery that seems to cloud my judgement.
Need something to set me straight and get things right again. Unfortunately, the drink seems to be losing it's effect.