Queensland Wasteland

[BelGarion]

he had a good hack at me last night :|

[Nizmo]

true - just horrible to see a person that has nothing to be unhappy about beat themselves up all the time ...... ive already seen one friend destroy themselves - so i cant help it if im concerned

[BelGarion]

awww im all alone again

[Nizmo]

where is Dave - havent seen him around in ages!

[NismoGirl]

I've had a bad life.

Mum and Dad divorced when I was 6. I got put into councelling and just made a big joke of it because I Didn't know what the **** I was doing, nor did I wanna tell some stranger anything. "Erin, draw a little picture for me" GRR

Then I blamed my mum for it all when it was my dad who couldn't keep his dick in his pants. Grown up in housing commission my whole life and lived with a single parent on a single wage (not fun) struggling to make it by. My dad only even came to see us when he didn't have a g/f.

Then I went through all that shit at school. Now I realise that I get my own money how hard it is to live and how ****ing much I love my mum for what she did for us three girls.

[BelGarion]

what happens happens, if it destroys me then its meant to be

[Nizmo]

wheres paul - hehe ive got an appetite so be cool to eat dinner tonight

*tummy is going grumble*

[NismoGirl]

Not that I'm asking for sympathy but hey, I'm still alive, I'm earning a **** of a lot more than other people my age and I'm healthy and I"ve got a roof over my head. Really, I've got nothing to be upset about. I've got my family and my friends, what else do I need?

[Nizmo]

Erin thats not a good start to life - but im glad u turned out alright My best bud had basically the same situation except she cant turn to her mother either - in fact she came to my house recently cos her mum smashed her head into the laundry wall!!

[NismoGirl]

Originally posted by BelGarion

what happens happens, if it destroys me then its meant to be

**** off it's meant to be. You aren't helping yourself. Do something about it.

Accidents and illnesses are meant to be. Not suicide. Suicide is for cowards.

Oh yeah, did I mention that at the tender age of 8 I was standing in the intensive care unit of the hospital watching my dad fight for his life and having his stomach pumped with coal after he tried to kill himself?

[BelGarion]

ive lost too many friends anyway, whats the point, i try and be happy about stuff but people only run me into the ground again, they go outta their way to do it to me

[Skyrine-Dave]

bel you need alcohol and a night out with some mates, then a trip in a nice fast car, that might make u happy, if not it'll put a grin on your face

[NismoGirl]

Originally posted by BelGarion

ive lost too many friends anyway, whats the point, i try and be happy about stuff but people only run me into the ground again, they go outta their way to do it to me

I think you'll find your wrong again.

YOU LET IT HAPPEN. DON'T. Fight back. Their not real friends and not worth having if they do that.

[BelGarion]

i need to buy something for the car to make me happy again

[Nizmo]

my life had a good start - later on it wasnt entirely all roses but ive been thru nothing compared to some people and what i have been thru i have learnt from so its not all entirely bad - in the end it makes u the person your meant to be

[NismoGirl]

People pick on the vunerable to make themselves feel better.

And letting everyone know that your vunerable at the moment is impacting on you because they are attacking you when you are down and can't fight back.

[Nizmo]

Originally posted by BelGarion

i need to buy something for the car to make me happy again

Thats the spirit - its what i would do :uh-huh:

[BelGarion]

meh they do it cause i got nothing to come back at them, ignoring them they win, they know they have me pinned

[NismoGirl]

I'm going to have a hot shower and warm up before I go out

See you guys and my darling lauren later.

I'm off work tomorrow so I will try and come on here and whore with you all. I'm going to get my hair done too

[Nizmo]

later Erin *hugs*

Bel sorry but im off to - nearly home time - well actually off to harass paul haha. Anyway catch ya later *Hugs*