How are you feeling today Scott?
Some days when you wake up, it'll feel like, "Surely this is just a bad dream - right?"
As days tick by, even the emotions change.
Numbness > Disbelief > Anger > Despondency > Rationalising > Mustering faith to fight etc.
Even taste in the music one listens to, changes.
Anyway, a journey it is. And I hope your journey doesn't have many rotten bumps or quicksand!
Cheers for now!